Cracks Let the Light Come In

Friendship.

Posted by Cracks Let The Light Come In , Thursday, June 11, 2009 2:38 AM

I wish it were easier, but in my life I've learned that it isn't. No, I'm not the perfect friend-no one is- But I am the kind of person who puts a lot into friendships. I try. It frustrates me and hurts me when the friendships I hold closest don't give back. Like a one way street, I guess.
A friend is someone who is there in someone's time of need, right? And even if they can't be they don't just ignore them.. At least, they shouldn't. I don't think I'm overreacting, I think I'm just feeling. It stinks beings away from some friends for the entire school year and then expecting things to just be the way they were. They aren't the same and won't be again. I guess really I'm just talking about one friend. My heart hurts. I feel like I don't want to let that person in again because I don't want to keep getting hurt. Because it would be me letting them in. Space? Maybe that would be good. I guess it doesn't matter. I guess it can't matter.

I miss having someone to talk to and talk with. I haven't had that in a long time. There's a lot in and on my heart that I need to share, but when no one wants to listen it makes it really difficult. Especially when I feel like I'm talking to an emotionless wall.

I miss my JBC friends who actually cared about how I was doing and knew when I wasn't doing well. I hate the fake friendships here. I just want to back at JBC.-home