Terrified
Posted by Cracks Let The Light Come In , Sunday, December 19, 2010 11:05 PM
I am absolutely terrified that if I go back to Johnson in the fall, there won't be a place for me. People will be growing and changing without me. People will have experienced heartache, joy, laughter, memories.. things I won't be there for. I'm scared of being replaced. I feel like it would be easy.. people would fill the Emma gap with other people. Things change, you adapt. It's human nature. I don't know if I could handle coming back to an environment that is used to me not being around.
I don't want to be forgotten.
My whole life, I've yearned for acceptance, and I have it at Johnson. I fear that if I leave, I won't have it when I return.
I guess this is where faith comes in. I have to trust that God will provide me with the same incredible friends I've had the last year and a half. And if not? Then I will keep going.
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