Cracks Let the Light Come In

Summer has Begun

Posted by Cracks Let The Light Come In , Friday, May 21, 2010 12:33 AM

Sometimes life is funny. I've been thinking for the last few months that it would be really hard to come back to Ohio for the summer and leave all my friends.

I feel like I'm starting over. I'm becoming a new person. I'm learning new things about myself. I think I did this last summer too, probably because of my ample free time. It's good to not be around people all the time. I really love silence. Sometimes I hate it, but I think that's because I have to deal with myself in silence. Right now, I have the time to deal and to process.
I like this.
I am braking and I am breathing. I haven't breathed since right before I set foot on Johnson's campus in the fall. Then everything went into hyper-drive and I almost suffocated.

Although my summer is off to a refreshing start, I am quite confused about something. It's alright, though. In a few short months in will be remedied I do hope.



I feel alive again. I want to go back to Johnson. But not right now. I need this. I need this break. Breathing is good, and I have been holding my breath for far too long thinking it would sting my lungs. Granted, change is hard, but loving and living is so much greater than just being.

I feel real.