Cracks Let the Light Come In

It Feels Like Home to Me.

Posted by Cracks Let The Light Come In , Sunday, November 22, 2009 2:18 PM

It's funny how things happen sometimes. I will be the first to admit that I was not excited about coming back home for break. I haven't been in Fairfield for three months and was honestly alright with staying away for much longer, but, things change.

This morning, I was home again.

I got out of the car to walk into Church this morning, and before I even stepped into the building, someone I love so dearly, a girl from the Bible study I taught, stopped me and ran up to give me a hug. I walked inside with her and then saw my youth minister. He told me how much he missed me-I knew he was being real. Going to Sunday School, I felt so grown up, like there was a place for me, finally. I love Knoxville, but I HATE Church hopping.

Going into class, I was among my peers. The people I have loved so dearly for so many years. I was the third person in the room, and as people kept coming in, they kept coming over to me, telling me they were glad I was there. People came up to me that I barely knew, and wanted to know how I was doing. I had a family hunt me down and ask me to sing for their son's boy scout troop.. at the end of December. Haha.

I think that sometimes it takes coming from a bad place to have such a beautiful thing like I do. Maybe I'm wrong.. But sitting in the service and being surrounded by my church family who I've grown so much with over the years, my heart went back to a place that it hasn't been in a long time.. a place it's needed to be.

This God I serve is SO big. Who am I to think I didn't have a home on this Earth? I became so flooded with emotions and overjoyed by the love I was shown I couldn't stop smiling, and I just felt whole. I've been acting so silly lately; so selfish. It's almost that I've been gone for so long I had forgotten what I came from. I had forgotten what I knew. Even in darkness there is light and somewhere along the way I forgot that. Leave it to a place in Fairfield, Ohio, the one city I didn't want to be this week, to show me the light.