Venturing Out
Posted by Cracks Let The Light Come In , Friday, March 26, 2010 11:18 AM
A few hours ago, I woke up and had an attitude that screamed "ungrateful". I felt so unprepared for this day and for this week that awaits me in just a short hour. I have decided to skip my 11:25, and am glad I have decided such. Somewhere along the way today, between sitting ten rows back at the arrival of Choir Rehearsal because I was at a breaking point to laughing with my friends in Chinese class, my heart changed. I felt so much that I needed a break from these people and from this place. But truly, I needed a break from myself. I've been so caught up in myself lately. So caught up in my stuff, in my junk, in my worries and my problems. Who the heck am I? Other people don't want to hear me complain, so why am I doing it? After I walked out of Chinese today, I felt refreshed. Something happened in that class that I didn't expect. I was laughing again-for real. I got red in the face from embarrassment, but didn't care. I was being myself again.
Basically, Chinese made my life. It's funny how the smallest things can humble you. I was speaking another language, and poorly most of the time, and it completely improved my mood. I walked in with my head down and my heart heavy with the full belief that this week was going to be such a large burden. But walked out as if I'd conquered a battle. -And, I believe I did.
So, as I begin my venture to a state I have never been to, my attitude has changed, and my smile has returned. I am listening to a playlist that I made after Tour Choir's last going out, entitled "Hearts on the Ground" filled with worship songs. I am pretty sure it will be on repeat for most of my time in and to Florida.
It is a new day, and for that I am ever thankful.
Not all change is bad. Seasons happen. And the bad ones only help us appreciate how good the good ones actually are.
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